“I own 40+ books’ content in my head, but it takes time to decide on one small thing.

Normal?

Yes, totally normal!

I have always wished to pursue Tamil language or History for my degree. Unfortunately, due to (family) struggles, I was pushed to a position to choose Mechanical Engineering at a private engineering college in Thiruvannamalai.

After graduation, I realized I wasn’t the best fit to try out a job in the same lane. Meanwhile, I also had no idea how to take my career forward. I opted to try out certain Government exams. Three years passed by, but nothing changed except that my knowledge towards certain areas got expanded while preparing for the exams.

I tried out for bank exams and finally joined a private bank after completion of a course related to it. Lockdown happened and my sister’s wedding was fixed. I wasn’t provided with leave, which made me quit the job and leave the city.

I went back to Cuddalore; after my sister got married, I again pitched in for a job in Chennai. I got placed in IndusInd bank as a deputy manager. It’s been more than a year here now.

I would like to highlight the fact that ‘Yes, I’m from a middle-class family’ and that nobody owes any big assets for the next generations. Life becomes survival when there’s no scope for happiness.

Like many common men, I am skeptical about deciding for myself – from career to marriage. And I know what I lack, but still, I’m finding ways to overcome my fear of a certain way of living.

I might take my time to overcome them, but once I’m able to handle everything all alone, I’m sure I can live the best life ever. I know I’m good at painting, I know I can complete an entire book within 24 hours; and I also know that I’m not strong enough to do something new. However, my first biggest accomplishment is that I know my positives and negatives and that helps me play around with my decision.

I believe life has different plates of cuisine for everyone. I’m waiting to taste mine, and I don’t bother how long it will take. I take this journey as an experience.”