“Born to parents who subsequently got divorced, I’ve gone through my fair share of confusion as a child. Their baggage weighed in, making me unable to process my emotions clearly. I spoke well, but only amongst close circles which made the rest presume I was arrogant. People often backed off, with the mindset that I had an attitude problem when in reality I was silently struggling to express my thoughts.
Now if this wasn’t enough already, the chaos peaked with a sudden shift in my environment. We moved into Madurai where the cultural difference there became a breeding ground for many other internal conflicts. I became an extremely reserved kid with a volcano of emotions, dormant within. Even in school, I was that student who kept to herself and always sat silently in a corner
And what it slowly led to was me developing an inferiority complex. I was constantly under fear of how my future would pan out- whether I’d lose people or if I’m even good enough. These doubts looming in naturally made me feel like a burden to everyone around and even got me to contemplate suicide. Days felt long with a burst-like pain either going completely numb or expressing itself in a rain of tears.
This continued for a while until I met a bunch of beautiful women, who made me realize how wrong my perceptions were. It was a judgment-free zone around them, making me feel comfortable whilst indirectly aiding the transformation to the best possible version of myself. The statement ‘your friends’ group can either make or break you’ truly manifested in my life, and I couldn’t be more grateful.
Today, I’ve finished counseling psychology and enrolling in the course was another decision that felt like a win. The learning there helped me label what I was going through whilst making the recovery process much easier. Not to mention, the faculty there have become my strongest pillars throughout this journey, putting me in a much clearer headspace. Giving up on life would have been a simpler choice, but I believe this life has a lot of surprises in store for me.”
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